Have always dreamed

Being so lonely as a child felt like starving in the desert hopelessly. Being a child i knew i had to grow ,i had to find a way out ,a solution that will help in the desert of loneliness.

All i thought of was a friend who will never leave, one to help me find food in the hot sand, one i will tell all silly things and will just keep smiling.

My mind and thoughts became that one special friend. Well finding it had to store all i tell my mind,i embraced the pen and paper. Joy like a foutain poured on me ,yah really fell in love with writing.

Racked with insecurities i had to gaurd my writings like a lioness with its cubs. Sure they aint good and perfect . Fearing judgement I had to keep them a secret.

But I still dreamed that i will be the eye to the blind ,the star in the dark . Though am afraid of seeing a knife in my heart yet am sure that the blood that painfully leaves it will take me out of this desert. Have always dreamed that I will be someone unfound like pregnant virgins.