HER

She knows me in and out , she understands me better than anything. Problem is,Have never taken time to know her , I fear her to death, O my God she is like a tigeress in my miserable life. Just a sight of her makes me scream a loud piercing”JESUS CHRIST,she is here”in my heart.

Sitting near her is like swimming in fresh mountain lava . Then her voice so high and loud like thunder , It seriously makes me jump from my position for i always think she is sermoning lightening to come and strike me . Being with her for the entire day is like staying in a lions den. Am always dripping ,hoping God could save me like He saved Daniel. The sound of her name makes me shiver and almost brings me to death like a fish out of water.

Yes ,I fear her ,but most i get worried when she utters those toxic words “you are nothing” which i fear will ruin me from the inside. Should i say am already ruined for i fear doing anything new because her voice will get louder than a siren, God it scares me!! When she talks I start wishing the ground could swallow me. Am saphocating with the darkness of fear, I am yarning for just a flash light. Because truely, am afraid I cannot be me when I fear her.

Have never feared her quick hand that strikes me so hard but I fear the voice ,the VOICE, the sound. Am afraid she thinks I fear the hand.

Well,am afraid I cant fight this fear for I believe this fear has pushed me to do greater things. Yes I fear her but am still grateful that she brought fear to me for trying to fight it has made me a resilient person. Am scared I love her for she taught me that fear is never a solution. Though I still fear telling her that I LOVE HER.

NAKIRAYI RITA MUKAAYA nakirayirita@gmail.com